Hey you,
I know I have been neglecting my blog, but I honestly had no clue what to do with it. All I wanted it to be was a place where I could put my issues, but everything seemed so negative. Not everything about my life is negative, so after three posts it started bugging me. So I have decided what I'm going to do with it. Whether you read it or not, that's up to you, but this will be the place where I talk about my happy, sad, funny, etc, moments in my life that I can't tell you anymore because you are moving soon and we won't be able to talk every moment on skype. I hope it's going to be a lot, but with you having your daughter and a husband, and god knows the amount of hours between us it's not going to be possible. The more the better though! Let's not lose contact or just see each other when you come back home.
So, here goes. I'm sure you know that most of the pre-moving is going to be quite sad because of my overly emotional state. You are experiencing this too. Although the last three days have been perfect! Watching films, playing with A., eating frozen yoghurt in the shopping mall, drinking loads of tea and just sitting around talking about everything and nothing. Another highlight was planning that New York trip. It's going to be something to scratch of my bucket list, if I had something like that. I cannot wait to go on that trip, although I do not look forward to get on that plane alone. Do not fret, I will get on there, because it will bring me back to you.
I think the hardest part of you moving, is knowing that you will. It's thinking about how I'm going to miss you and then I'm actually going to miss you. Seriously, it hurts. I'm trying not to cry in front of you, but I have had my small cries on the toilet, in the bath and in bed. Then it continued the moment you closed your door all the way on the train, the underground and here at home. It's just bizarre knowing that when I have to tell you something, no matter whether it's good or bad, that I cannot get on a train and see you. We won't have those walks, that result in fro-yo or coffee. At this moment I am seriously greatful for Skype, Facebook, Twitter, Mail and everything else that will keep me in touch with you.
I'm glad we have that project to work on. No matter whether it actually becomes something or it's something that just keeps us talking, it will always be a good thing. You will be able to do some sort of work the first year you are in America, even if it is just thinking of concepts. It will give me something to pour my fantasy into. It will keep us talking. I know I keep saying that, but I cannot imagine us not talking, us not being sisters from other misters anymore.
Please Please Please, just visit a lot. Promise we'll never give up finding time to talk on skype and come back after three years (or five).
Already missing you (even though you aren't gone yet),
Me.
